If you love somebody, write it down! Now that I'm back from Hong Kong, I am faced, once again, with the reality that Wurm is gone, and I am alone...

When I have a particularly difficult night (such as tonight), I try to stop crying by reading some passages from Chrys's journal... Though it may not stop the tears, it takes away the horrible memories of his death and replaces it with the happy memories of the years we shared together...

I strongly recommend that if you love someone, start writing in a journal, or at least write a "just in case" goodbye note (both of which Chrys did)... Because, once you are gone, your own written words will be much more comforting to the spouse you left behind than a hundred friends trying to make him feel better...

My world has been turned upside down. Even though Chrys's own family does not understand the life and love we shared, I know in my heart how much I loved my baby and how much he loved me. And when it begins to feel like this shattered life is starting to drive me insane, just reading some of my baby's comforting words snaps me back to reality...

I miss my baby...

(click for larger image)  ¶ Monday, April 17, 2006